Safe and Sound

We're saying goodbye to fight or flight.

I’ve been sitting on updating this blog for a while. I’ve had a lot going on the past few weeks. I finally feel like I’m catching my breath. I think today is the first day I’ve had time to process that I am safe. By safe I mean that I’m not in fight or flight mode. My adrenaline is finally subsiding. I feel as though a weight was lifted off my chest.

Photo by Dominik Dancs on Unsplash

It’s interesting how certain environments and people can trigger the unhealed parts of you. The parts that are wild and untamed. These things make you stay on guard, on edge, and ready to attack. There are also energy vampires. The people who latch on you to feel better and drain you. You’re left depleted. I feel like the past few years have been consistent of those two groups of people: the ones that bring out my unhinged side and those that drain me. I hope to not be in those situations again.

So here I am, house sold, nervous system confused, and trying to figure out my new life. Now that I’m not dealing with everything at once, I do feel slightly excited. I’m free! I feel like someone literally untied me. I have been bounded for several years and for the first time I can think and figure out what’s next. I feel like I’m breathing for the first time.

So what is next? As for now, I have no clue. I have some short term things I want to tackle but as for my life itself? I think for the first time in all my Type A life, I’m not going to think about it. I’ll just follow my intuition and see where I end up. Life is meant to be explored. So I’m going to explore.

Catch you on the flip side,

Christina